3 AM

It's three in the morning and I feel oddly compelled to write. You would think with a looming ten page research paper and two newspaper articles I would be doing anything else but this.

I've not kept up this blog like I had intended to do. But what can I say other than "life gets in the way." Sounds cliche' until you realize how true it is. But now that it seems like the world came to a beautiful halt for me and then crashing down all around me it feels like the right time to rejoice/vent.

All last semester I thought I was doing so great. I was even pretty confident that I was going to pass the hardest class I have ever taken. And I did, with a C, but I passed. But I never thought my procrastination would come back to bite me in the end. I had made almost all A's on my weekly quizzes in my American Novel class. And even managed a low a on the mid-term. Who would have thought that my inability to concentrate on a paper would cause me not to finish my term paper and fail the course.

In the midst of my utter failure the most miraculous thing happened. Bear proposed. That's right, he bought a ring and I promised to spend forever with him. Now, given that this idea of forever slightly terrifies me because I have no idea how to be someone's wife, much less how to do it forever, I was pretty stoked about the idea of marrying him. And I got completely caught up in wedding stuff for about a month and a half. (I have a feel this also added to my paper procrastination.) But it's March now and we semi-sort of settled on a date. March 16, 2013! Yep, you read right folks. Two years. Two years of saving. Two years of planning. Two years of waiting. And you might be thinking that it's very smart and responsible of us to wait and you would be right. But I have never received any type of award for responsibility when it comes to my personal life. It gives us plenty of time to put back some cash, and (as it has been pointed out to me many times) plenty of time to plan. Well the thing is, I'm already bored with this planning stuff. Because until you can fork over some cash, there's not much else to it other than looking and dreaming. And well that has already gotten me into trouble once.

Well that was a lovely break from trials and tribulations, but now to get on to the world crashing around me. "How can this be?" you may ask. I know that I have a wonderful fiance' and all should be right in the world. Except, this was supposed to be my wonder senior year. Even though it is my fifth year, it was supposed to be my last. Ah, caught on to that "supposed to be" phrase did you? I found out about two weeks ago that I will in fact not be graduating this May. (I see the phrase "how can this be?" flashing in my head again.) Well if you recall that class with the wonderful grades that was destroyed by my procrastination. This class had mystical powers that I knew not of. It possessed the power to ruin my life and keep me from graduating. It was a program requirement. So, take heed let this be a lesson to anyone who dare reads this blog, DON'T SCREW IT UP IN THE END!

So I am currently on an uphill tread of this roller-coaster of a year. I'm slowing trying to figure out how I am going to make up for my colossal mistake, make some slightly concrete plans for the next phase of my life, and still trying to fulfill my current obligations. So any prayers or positive thoughts are very welcome. I could use all that I get.

The goals this week:
Start writing my P.A. term paper
Finish both muse articles
Finish getting promotions out for UMS program

Almost Over

Oh how the time flies. It seems as though summer is almost over. June went by in blaze of glory with work and Alpha Sigma Tau convention. So after all my worrying it turned out that I was just being a bit dramatic. Because you see it seems as though running her own company and serving as National Vice President for ΑΣΤ didn't leave Shelly much time to respond to every email I sent. So in the end it was pointless, because I was an intern after all and it was amazing. I met so many amazing women, and a few awesome men, and made so new friends that I hope to keep in touch with through out my lifetime. It was so inspiring to see some of the women there, especially some of the ladies in their 80's and Mrs. DeCamp who was attending convention for the 25th time! I so want to go in two years to Indy and see the new headquarters and all of the wonderful things that will happening there. It was also pretty cool because I was nominated for Convention Top Tau. No, I didn't win but it still rocked to even be nominated. :) Now I'm just ready to get back to UWA and get started on all of the wonderful things we have to share.

I sometimes wonder if I'm normal due to my strange desire to always be a school. I have been this way from a very young age, but it still eludes me sometimes. It's not like I'm a fan of homework or waking up in the mornings, but it just some that I've always wanted. Even though I do believe this will be the best year of my scholastic career....EVER!!! :))) I'm an RA again (which is not the highlight of my year, but I'm not sure what I would do with out it). I will be graduating on May 7, 2011!!! And boy am I ready. But before then I will be serving as the UWA Greek Council Vice President. I hope that the re-established council is able to boost our Greek system the way we want and deserve. I'm looking forward to a fun filled year before I tackled the real world and adult-hood.

I am all with out kittens now. Nala was adopted and so was Lizzy. Alabama passed away in a tragic accident. And when the couple came to get Nala they wanted Boy Cat too, but my daddy whom hates cats and has never let me have one wouldn't let them have her. He said that he knew I cared about it too much and just couldn't give her away. I almost cried when Momma told me. The very next morning Momma woke me up to tell me something was wrong with Boy Cat. I went to go get her and she had ants on her and looked like she hadn't eaten in days, though we fed her the night before. She had diarrhea and wasn't taking the food or milk I gave her. I dashed to Wal-Mart to find something for her but all of the cat items were out of reach due to our remodel so I was helpless and just stood there and cried until a guy told me to try pedalite for kids because I told him she looked dehydrated. I got home, fixed her a bottle and her wrapped in a towel trying to to get her to drink it. I was home for about twenty minutes when she died while I was holding her.

Robert and I haven't seen each other much, but yesterday I went to Tuscaloosa to see him. Gosh I didn't realize how much I miss him when he's gone. I can't wait until I get to spend time with him everyday. It seems like these next two years are just going to drag on. I can only hope they pass as quickly as this summer has.

Hello June, Hello Job!!!

Ever heard the old saying "April showers bring May flowers?" Well it rained cats and dogs the end of May and brought June job(s). I use the plural here very carefully because I'm still unsure about one of them. Well the first job, and the one I have already mentioned, Wal-Mart started yesterday. I was stuck in a little room with some people that I have known of since high school and never spoken to and someone else that I would be perfectly content with never speaking to again. Other than that it hasn't been a bad experience, but it is only the second day. Now the second job I mentioned is much more my style. The day after my interview with Wal-Mart I received an email from National Vice President of Alpha Sigma Tau sorority about an internship for national convention!!! I had applied for this months ago and just assumed that I didn't get it, so I offered to go only a few days as a volunteer. So this threw a wrench in my exciting new plans, and to make a long story short I turned my bio in a little late Friday evening; I haven't heard anything since now I'm nervous that I may not have turned in on time at all and will not be able to intern. :( But there is supposed to be a conference call this week so I'm hoping that I will hear something soon!
Robert took one of the kitties home with him this weekend and has proceeded to spoil her rotten. Before he even got to his house with her, he had spent $40 dollars on a pet bed, litter box and kitty litter. He is really enjoying his first pet. <3

Changes

There have been some major changes around our house this week. We have acquired more pets. Five kittens to be exact. This might not be so spectacular for some people, but for our family it is outstanding. You see, my dad hates cats. I begged for one most of adolescent life until the point came that I no longer wanted one. We had to plead just to get our dog, so now for us to have five kittens and a dog is simply mind boggling. After a rough start they are doing well. I pulled the first one out from under the house, and every time I pulled one out I thought it was the last one only to be fooled. I have bottle fed them, bathed them, and even began to name them, even though I know they cannot stay. :(

Well 30 applications later it seems that I am officially employed. Wal-Mart decided that they could use my mad money counting skills. I was interviewed today for a cashier position. I will be donning a navy blue t-shirt and khakis and should begin training this week! ^.^ On a not so excited note, a stipulation of this employment is the mandatory drug test. No I have never been drug tested before and I was not thrilled with this experience. I felt as though I was a criminal and could not be trusted. But now that I have gotten that experience of of the way, let the pay period begin!

For most people in my situation school is taking a back seat to everything related to sun, water, and summer fun. But I slacked off at the end of the term and now to pay the price I have work that I need to finish. So tomorrow, along with cleaning and laundry, I will begin the tedious task of completing my grammar work. I will have to put my nose to the grind stone on this one and just get it done.

I am looking forward to a visit from Robert, aka Bear. He is suppose to come to my house on Thursday evening and not leave until Friday possibly Saturday. I hope that we thoroughly enjoy my belated birthday celebration.

But now I must be off to my new nightly ritual of falling asleep to Mr.Darcy profess his undying love for Miss Elizabeth!

Attempt #1

I have never blogged before, but thought I would give it a try because I might actually might want to look back on the thoughts in my head. Besides I need something to keep me on my toes for the summer.

So I have started the grueling job search for the summer. I have put in nearly 15 applications so far and I am hoping to hear back from someone, anyone really, by Wednesday. It is absolutely necessary for me to find a job since it turns out that I owe UWA $600 before the summer is over. :( But on the bright side Bear (Robert... just feels weird to call him Bear here) got a job at Sam's club as a cart pusher. The heat and constant physical labor is getting to him, but it will be great when he gets his first check I'm sure.

I have also decided to set a goal (or two) for the summer. I aim to loose 50 pounds by August. And I have tried to go walk every day and do crunches. I don't know if I have lost any yet, but I intend to break out the scale and check tomorrow. My second goal is this blog. I want to post at least once a week. This being the first of course. I have a few other things I want to accomplish but I will work on finding a job and these two goals first.